The Preparation

So I am getting you ready to really pore my all out,
My every little unsettling thing, And I think my goal this year is to totally touch upon the things that are uncomfortable.
The places where I have came thus far in my life and the triumphs and loses. The loses are not always bad things, they're just things that happen to us when we've over planned, expected too much, or totally unexpected having to fail at something.  They are things people don't like to talk about so I am going to talk about them. In an eloquent way, yes, I believe it is possible to raise a discussion in public without the fear of being scrutinized. That scrutiny or prejudice should not keep people from being who they're truly meant to be! Frankly, how many times do we run into dickhead people because they are trying to "save face" be someone they aren't?
I need to use my unsettling, backtracking, fuck-up moments as the moments where I truly learn and investigate just how hardcore human I truly am.
I have to say how I feel to people who I know need to hear it.  If someone is not treating me right I am going to let that person know: "hey homie (whether you're my boss or not) you are not above me in the human sense" And I have experienced this at two different jobs this year. And here I am still not completely demolished because I told someone in a particular way that I thought they were being sexist, I thought they were being inconsiderate of my time or efforts.
Take some breathers, you know, if you ask me; it is those moments in life when you have been embarrassed, or shocked, or amazed that really get you thinking about the person you truly are. And so this is who I am just a woman who stands up for what she believes in and isn't necessarily trying to "save face."

Deborah Leon Godinez Copyright ©2013